Monday, October 26, 2015

I still avoid you in the halls

I was an idiot
You were an idiot

We were in love, warm and messy.

I don't know what happened. I was fifteen and you were fourteen and I didn't know we were broken until I tried to put us back together.

This shouldn't bother me anymore.
Why the hell does this still bother me?
I was a kid.
I was just a kid.
I'm still just a kid.

I know, I know. I shouldn't have read through those old messages. I shouldn't have done it.
It made me remember...

The feel of your lips
The round bones on your wrist that you probably know the name of
The way you draw in a breath right before laughing
The beat of your heart
The smell of your hair
The sound and feel and taste and smell of absolutely nothing but you

I never stopped loving you,
I just started forgetting.

That was then, but now?

Now I see you in the halls, and I cast my eyes down.
You're a graveyard with legs and death scares me.

8 comments:

  1. "You're a graveyard with legs and death scares me."
    Woah.

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  2. "The round bones of your wrist you probably know the name of"

    And of course the last line.

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  3. This happened to me when I was 15 too. Still can't look at him in the halls either. But this was a phenomenal post. The imagery is so good!!

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  4. incredible and completely relatable.

    "You're a graveyard with legs and death scares me."
    #stolen

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  5. YOU'RE A GRAVEYARD WITH LEGS AND DEATH SCARES ME. how did you come up with that?

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  6. I'm totally regretting that I never saw this.
    You're an amazing writer.

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  7. Graveyards are dying deep down. On the outside there's flowers and pinwheels; to make you forget what is down below.
    -M

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