Monday, October 13, 2014

Introduction v2.0

Hello, my name is Solstice Everston.

No, no, that’s not right.

Hello, my name is Solstice Everston and I like writing.

That’s too boring.

Hello, my name is Solstice Sprinkles Everston and I lied about my middle name just now.

That seems too dishonest.

Hello, I'm Solstice Everston. I hate you.

No, that's too honest.

Hello, I'm Solstice Everston and I-

We're going about this all wrong, Solstice. We need to be approachable and friendly and normal while still retaining privacy and a closed friend group and character.

Hello, I'm Solstice Everston and I'm an oxymoron.

Okay... let's just try being upfront about things. Maybe that will help. Start again.

Hello, I'm Solstice Everston. I'm a girl obsessed with movies and writing and movies. I have depression, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (ever notice how the time stamps on my posts are always even numbers?), an eating disorder, and something else I'm too much of a coward to spell out–

Solstice, that's not what I–

I'm scared what the world will do to me. I'm scared what you'll see. I'm scared God will pluck me from the earth like a blade of grass and tell me I'm wrong–

SOLSTICE, STOP THIS RIGHT NOW!

I know your heart will say yes but I'm afraid your brain will win it over. Happiness is a choice but this isn't. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do any of this. Why would I willingly ruin my life?

I just want you to know: love you. Break my heart as you may, but I love you. I love your jokes and your soul and your intentions. I know all hell is going to break loose, but I love you. Please remember that–

STOP. STOP THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN YOU CALLED ME OVER FOR THIS I DIDN'T EXPECT AN ATTACK. YOU SHOULD'VE SAID 'Hey Facade, you should come over so I can tell you exactly how I'm going to kill you.' BUT NO, YOU HAD TO GO OUT OF YOUR WAY TO MAKE THIS AN ELABORATE PLAN, DIDN'T YOU?!

Listen, I don't have much time. Even if (when) you give up on me, I'll never give up on you. The universe just got in the way of us.

I love you.

1 comment:

Thanks for commenting! *Awkward high five*