Tuesday, June 3, 2014

The Truth About Painkillers

Do any of us really know what love is? Everybody thinks they know what love does to us. They don’t say they understand it, but they say they know what it does. They say it makes us happy, full and complete. That it’s beautiful, blind, and inevitable. That it makes us whole.

But that’s not the truth, is it? Love doesn’t do any of these things.

I mean, we get caught sick with this basic human condition that demands to be felt, all of our minds in a whirl of emotion trying to give it a description. Love makes us idiots making us romantics making us spouses making us grandparents making us dead. And even if you don’t want to admit it, we follow it like a dreamer follows the stars.

I’ll tell you the truth about love.

Love is a painkiller.

It’s not a feeling, but the lack of. I’ve been hooked on this painkiller for a while now, and I’m going through withdrawal. Love detaches us from this horrid world and makes everything seem okay. And right when we get a taste of it, we put our mouths over the tap like we did when we were kids.

And I know none of us want to hear this, too.

I know we’d all rather think of love as a pretty mystery that can’t be solved. As a dreamy event that can’t be added to the calendar, something Taylor Swift and Anis Mojgani are even a little fluent in, as convertibles riding into the sunset with nobody wearing hair ties, as stars that won’t burn us up if we get too close.

But the Universe is expanding. Einstein didn’t want to believe it either.

Love is an anesthesia prescribed by God to knock us out cold, because we can’t handle the chaos of this place. I’m not even sure if I can much longer.


  1. Fresh outlook, very interesting. It made me think.

  2. Unique. It's not a feeling, but the absence of pain. Never thought of it that way before.

  3. Mmmm. Everything about this scares me. Beautiful, but terrifying.

  4. "Love is an anesthesia prescribed by God to knock us out cold"
    "Love is a painkiller. It's not a feeling, but the lack of."
    Those lines hit me hard and sunk in.

  5. Staring at the ceiling when I should be sleeping has gotten me a surprising distance in life.

    Thanks for the comments. :)


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